I couldn't even watch the whole thing

Good beer-really good beer-is slowly making it's way into the national consciousness. And I'm glad of that, but when I watch the video I link to I just feel the setback, like some kind of glacial momentum shift.

The dude acts like such a fucking douchebag, and the woman just seems to have this 'But I'm a girl I don't like beer' thing going on, with the subtext of cocksucking underneath it that...well, it's just a shame.

"Be careful, that beer is complex"
YOU ARE A DUMBASS

Nuking the site from orbit

I have a vasectomy scheduled for tomorrow.

This feels a little weird, because I'm making a choice that's quite final. Final choices always have more weight, and that weight is present in part because even though I never wanted to have kids, I did have the realization that I could have them, and it would be a good life.

That said; the idea of being a father scares me to death. I don't have a bad life, but I also am under no illusions that it's one that could support another human being. I guess what makes this event so weird is that I'm choosing between two fears, and I don't like either of them.

I also don't like the idea of something edged being taken to my testicles. I can't ever imagine a situation where I'm going to think that's good and hope for it.

As with so many things, the whole story is a little complicated. The lass at one point would've loved to be a mom. Now, the circumstances of her life compel her, as a smart, caring, wonderful person, to close that door. And she, she I'd have a family with; so it's bittersweet.

I was telling Rasta about it this last weekend, and what I said was, "This decision does not come without a little regret, but I think it's the best one."

I still do. I just think it's a little sad, too.

Grillin'

There's just a link. I liked it.

Weirdness

Had a really good weekend for the most part. My friend Rasta visited, and Fuz and I pretty much spoiled her rotten. It's nice to be able to treat your friends, when you can.

Saw Cloverfield, and thought it was a pretty solid film. Not the best thing ever, and sometimes hard to watch due to shaky cam issues, but well executed and a nice take on the Godzilla genre.

Sunday...I went out to meet up with some friends to watch football. In the middle of it, one couple got into a rather serious discussion, and it pretty much torqued the rest of the evening at the pub. It's weird to see people have out their relationship issues publicly, and gods know I'm guilty of having done that.

Why I love Fark

sigh

Remember: your depression isn't solved by discussion, it is solved by action.


It was a long night, in a way, and it had a lot of things to say to me that I wasn't alwasy happy to hear.

But, something must be done.

Also: Tights are not pants

Adaptabilty issues

When I make beer-and I am trying to do this at least once a month, if not more-sometimes, it comes out badly.
Fortunately, I can bring it to the Oregon Brew Crew for advice.

And, what I found out was that in the case of one beer, my willingness to swap one ingredient for another meant my beer tasted like death.

Sometimes, experimenting can really be awesome-but as with so many things, it helps to know what you're doing. Still, I'm glad I've fucked up, even though it was initially pretty disheartening, because I feel like I know more.